Season of Gemini

SOMETHING IS SHIFTING. I CAN FEEL IT. I'm here to speak what's next. 

Excited about coming into my season😆I have always felt so connected to my sign and I have always identified with all the personality traits (good and bad!) that come along with being a Gemini.

COMMUNICATION! Perceptive, inquisitive, charming, intellectual.. and then there's the indecisiveness, scattered, impatient, nervous energy, cares too much... ALL the things!

I think being a Gemini has definitely been consequential throughout my journey of awakening. Especially this past week.

2:22 PM - "A message of balance, harmony, and trust in the process of life. It suggests that you're on the right path and that everything is working out as it should, often with divine blessings. It also encourages you to trust your intuition and to be patient in manifesting your desires."

I've been struggling so much over the past week with being conflicted, with overthinking, trying to make sense of everything. Trying to do the right thing, not make the wrong choice, being impatient and confused about my path. Being the true Gemini that I am!

Today in so many ways has been a reminder to stop running away from the feelings that have been coming up.

I had thought the release in Mexico with the DMT would be it! I'm good! All the trauma and suffering and pain was gone! 

I've only just opened the door. 

As time stretches on from Mexico, reality continues to set in and I am faced with the realization that there are still feelings and emotions I need to face and still have not addressed. The real work hasn't even really begun. I've just broken the surface of self discovery and the path has been rapid and overwhelming and exciting, but intoxicating and confusing. I've been fearful.

But the feelings will continue to chase me until I confront them. Sit with them. Acknowledge them and figure out what my body and soul are trying to tell me.

During my integration session with Vanessa today, she prompted me to take some ice and grasp it in each hand, then SCREAM. There was so much built up within me that needed to be released.

I got emotional and shameful. I didn't want to do it. I was embarrassed. This already was telling.

She allowed me to shut my camera off, mute my microphone, and do the practice in my own space.

I did. The dog was terrified😂She shot right up with ears perked and eyes wide. I screamed. Multiple times, it was strange. I had no idea I was capable of that sound. I did it a few times until I felt some relief.

I'm doing too much, forcing too much. All the readings, and all the classes, and all the things won't fix anything, won't provide any guidance until I LET GO. Accept it. Observe but not absorb.

The feelings are still there for a reason and I can't continue to just suppress them and freeze when they come up. 

After our call, I went outside and stood in the grass in my backyard barefoot. To be grounded with the earth and just listen. It's colder than normal out today for late May, but the air was crisp and the breeze felt clear and fresh. There were birds chirping and cars going by in the distance. I took some deep breaths and went inside to face the breathwork I've been avoiding.

I found a Rebirthing Breathwork video on YouTube that was presented by Pyramids of Chi in Bali (of course...Bali.. AGAIN). And I laid down on my mat to participate. I followed the guide through the breathing cycles and tried to release and let whatever is to come, appear. 

It was quick, it wasn't anything super powerful or a full journey, but it was impactful. I felt the tranquility and was grateful for the solace that I felt in the moments after the work was complete. I wasn't resisting and I feel like I want to try again.

Almost immediately after the breathwork was over, I happened to see a story shared on Instagram from Rory, who hosts the Manifesting Humanity group every other Tuesday. It's very strange, but not surprising, I had mentioned earlier to Vanessa, he comes up often in my mind - a spiritual connection that I so closely relate to. His words are so strangely aligned with where I am at and what feels right in my world. His message was that "in suffering is the catalyst for us to transfer into something more" I deserve to be able to live the life I dream of, and to be able to do that, I can't run from my suffering. Something is out of alignment with what my soul is asking for, what my soul is desiring. I need to reflect so I can bring about change. 

It was exactly what I needed to hear. What I discussed with Vanessa on our call, what I am pushing myself to break free from with breathwork. The 222 I saw as I am writing this blog. The welcoming of the Gemini season of 2025, a period that marks a time of change and adaptation, intellectual curiosity, opening to new to experiences, breaking out of my comfort zone to try new things and seeking different perspectives. It is my season. 

I need to find trust within myself. To remember I AM HERE. To trust that I AM HERE. To breathe. To observe and not absorb. 

TRUST. Trust the process. Trust myself. Trust the journey. Only then will the path forward become clear. 

Jade for Gemini ~ Calming effects on the nervous system and reduce stress. Harmony, wisdom, spiritualty, reason, composure.

Rutilated Quartz for Gemini ~ Access joy, bring motivation for hard change, promotes spiritual awakening through emotional healing. Mental clarity, focus, communication, collaboration, confidence.

Carnelian for Gemini ~ Discover hidden abilities and talents. Develop creativity, overcome fickleness, find inner calm. Love, support, harmony, calm, self-confidence, composure, stress relief.

Tiger's Eye for Gemini ~ Unleash hidden abilities, be less vulnerable, provide more realistic view of the world. Protection, optimism, Career growth, determination, financial success, goal achievement.